So this is starting to sink in. That the first person I can truly say I ever fell in love with is gone. I hope I do see him again. Now I am left wondering what my next move should be. I feel tempted to shift to a solid state of abulia concerning guys. Something that in my life I have never undertaken. Yet actions will speak louder than words.
I need a Parklife. :)
I swear the Blur song I am listening to is about my brother.